Shadowlane Part XI: My Final Scene of the Weekend

Geez... I'm on post XI already. :-p  Here are all the others if you would like to see what I have been blabbing on about!

                              Part I  Part II  Part III  Part IV Part V 
                             Part VI Part VII Part VIII Part IX Part X

As the suites started to wind down, we slowly started to head up to suite 1016 for our super-overly-competitive-game-time. ;)  As we waited for everyone to show up, StrictDave's blowgun made another appearance.  OS was aiming for a water bottle and managed to dart the chair and the magazine that was the background behind the water bottle. It definitely was much harder to shoot than it looked!  I was very intrigued to try it, and Somaholiday passed on her words of wisdom that was taught to her by StrictDave.  Giving it a try, I managed to nail the water bottle on the first try.  Turns out, I was oddly good at shooting the thing and now I want one!  I'm not a hunter or anything (in fact I like to think that my protein magically shows up packaged at supermarkets as opposed to what really happens), but you never know.  It never hurts to be prepared for the zombie apocalypse. Most likely I will get it and shoot up the shed in my backyard for two months before getting sick of it and never using it again.  :-P

It was nice to hang out and chat, and I was looking up something on my phone when OS asked if we had a few minutes.  Since not everyone was there yet, of course we did.  Me being as dense as I am didn't understand what he was asking, so without looking up from my phone I told him kind of snarkyish if he needed a few minutes, take a few minutes.  "Do what you have to do OS!  We'll wait for you!"  He responded with a "good" and picked up his nasty hairbrush from the coffee table and grabbed my arm and pulled me towards the bedroom.  I protested because I honestly thought he had to use the bathroom or something.  

Inside the bedroom he told me to get in the corner.  I let out a disgruntled noise and shot a dirty look because I hate standing in the corner.  He responded with, "you know how I like you to stand in the corner, so it would be in your best interest to do that!!"

I sighed and stuck my nose in the corner but realized I still had my phone in my hand.  I turned to him and held it up and he took it saying that that was a wise move. I turned my nose back to the corner and he pulled my pj bottoms down to where they were hugging my lower cheeks.  

I do struggle with corner time.  I have a.d.d. and am unable to stand still in one spot for very long.  Corner time has been a battle of my wills vs my desire to please my play partners.  I hate it, but I like that my partners enjoy it and want to please them as well.  Thankfully OS seems to understand not to push and has never made me stand in the same spot for too long.  His tone and demeanor put butterflies in my tummy and I was a tiny bit nervous when he called me over to him.  

He pulled me over his lap and started to spank as he asked me if I knew why I was getting this particular spanking.  In my defense, it was very late Sunday night (technically Monday morning) of a spanking party and thanks to the abnormally long party drought for me between BBW and Shadowlane, I may have done and said a lot of sassy things in the four months between parties.  I was not sure what exactly he was talking about, and I also didn't want to provide any more ammunition just in case I was reminding him about things he didn't think of or things he maybe had forgotten about.  

Slightly amused, he told me to think harder and switched to that nasty hairbrush.  Trying desperately to think up the correct answer, I begged for a timeline.  Slightly smirking he said, "sure!  It was last May!"  I believe that was when the panties came down.

That did help and at first I asked if it was the online detention slips/punishment book shenanigans (it wasn't) and then I remembered the photo.  The Ohio State finger salut.  That brought us closer to the real reason.  Now it was not the picture (he does have a sense of humor) that he was thinking about, but an actual reaction to something I did/texted that was very real and very powerful to me that that was what he was spanking me for.  It is so hard for me to let people get inside my head, and he nailed it.  This was something I struggle with (with everyone, not just him or Spankos) and he had just called me out on it.  

I do not get spanked for real things very often, and by real I mean something I do not do on purpose.  It may seem like such a little thing to anyway else, but for me it was something that I have and continue to battle in my neurotic brain and occasionally get taken advantage of because if it.  When I pulled it on OS, he called it out way back in May, but it didn't register with me at the time.  That is how often I do this. It is second nature and I don't realize I am doing it.  I know it must be frustrating because I am not saying what it is, but this is my blog so you will just have to deal with it. ;)

My mindset had completely changed and I was caught slightly off guard, mostly because that is how rare it is to get in my head and put me into a submissive demeanor.  I was sorry and I no longer knew how to react.

The scolding made my eyes water and I tried very hard to stay focused and do as he asked.  The hairbrush continued to come down as I struggled against the sting of the wood wishing that I had played more during the day to be warmed up enough to take it gracefully.  My mind was still processing pain, scolding, and being disappointed with myself not to be more trusting of someone I adore so much.  

I don't remember ever seeing such a serious look on OS's face before. He took off his belt and told me that he was going to reinforce this lesson with his belt to help me remember in the future.  

I am not sure exactly what is wrong with me, but I do know that if I say the right words our scene will wrap up.  However, I became tongue tied.  I'm not sure if it is my inner stubbornness to test his resolve and see if he really DOES mean it, or the fact that I really felt that I deserved the discomfort, or the fact that my headspace was in the right spot to accept stroke after stroke, but I stayed silent with the exception of shrieks when the belt came down on a particularly tender spot.  The strokes continued with out stopping for quite a while.  I'm not even sure how long he ended up strapping me.  I turned a few times to see if I could catch his eye and possibly end the scene with my "I'm really sorry eyes", but the look and focus on his face was one of a top that wasn't going to stop until I submitted to what he had asked.  

Something in my brain finally clicked and I found my words.  Our scene wrapped up with some remarks, and then because I opened up my big mouth and made some remarks in an attempt to lighten my mood and be funny, I ended up back on the bed for a few more. 

OS told me that my bottom was very red and to go check it out in a mirror.  He was right.  It was the reddest I have seen it in a long time and I actually regret that we didn't get a picture.  I think that almost all the marks I got from the weekend were from this one scene. He gave me a big hug and whispered how he loved me, but as the adrenaline from the scene was wearing off, I was actually shaking and needed to sit down.  OS grabbed me some water as I calmed down and tried to de-fuzz my brain.  Of course in this moment I started apologizing for shaking and because I was just now realizing how long I had let that scene go on when others were waiting for us. I was even told to take a sip of water every time I wanted to say I was sorry, but I really wanted to apologize for being a pain in the ass and not submitting earlier.  He just shook his head and said, "you can't help yourself, can you!?"  I promise to keep working on it!

Thinking back, it was pretty selfish of me to hog up all his time, but it was the type of intensity that I had been craving for a long time and he is one of the few tops that I trust enough to give it to me.  When we went to join the rest of our friends for a night of games, sweet Stacy looked so concerned and she asked me if I was all right. I said yes, and thanked her for being so sweet and kind and nice enough to share her daddy.  Stacy and OS have this beautiful relationship and I know that they do not get to spend as much time together as they would like.  The fact that Stacy is nice enough to share her precious time is something I am incredibly grateful for.  She could easily tell me to go away and I would be more than happy to oblige! It is this kindness that makes us feel as if we are a real family.  We genuinely care for each other.  Heck, it is much nicer than what my real family is capable of giving.  :-P  

The adrenaline was definitely wearing off and I could feel the results of that particular spanking as I sat on the couch to get ready for an intense version of spanko catchphrase!

Shadowlane X: Sunday Night Suite Parties

New Here?  Catch up on my Shadowlane party blog post ramblings here:

 Part I  Part II  Part III  Part IV Part V Part VI Part VII Part VIII Part IX

Sunday night suite parties are my favorite because they are relaxed and low key.  Everyone is much more cuddly with the exception of sneaking out for last minute scenes.   A group of us were snuggling on the couch and able to share laughs and smiles and retell some of our favorite adventures from the weekend.  My prior anxiety attack was forgotten as I remembered how great it is to be in the company of good people and friends.  My mood was improved even more when TopJosh walked over to me and told me that he had been watching my smile light up the room since he walked in.  Having someone come up to me and say something so sweet made my night.  I’m glad that my “sincere” smile was showing.  ;) 

One bad thing about the suite is that one of the toilets overflowed and was starting to soak into part of the carpet.  I of course didn't realize it until AFTER I stepped in the gross, squishy carpet wearing sandals.  A plumber was called, but the hotel was taking its sweet ass time getting there.  One of the male party goers showed up carrying an implement bag that was also an actual toolbag. 

As a bunch of us were sitting on the couch, RainySpanker was the one to notice and started yelling, “The toilet is over there!!!   To the left!  NO, THE LEFT!!!!!”  We were all slightly confused to who he was shouting at, but then he shouted at another top to get his attention and point him to the bathroom.  The other top looked at the plumber look-alike, realized that he was a spanko guest, and quickly shook his head and waved his arms, NO at RainySpanker.   The entire couch started to crack up.

RainySpanker was trying to defend himself by saying, “doesn't he LOOK like he could be a plumber!!??”  Of course those of us on the couch had to spend the next ten minutes mocking RainySpanker yelling.  “LEFT!  LOOK LEFT!  THE TOILET IS ON YOUR LEFT!!!”  My stomach started to hurt I was laughing so hard.

Nightowl came and joined us on the couch and it was so good to catch up with her.  Friday night she had come up to me to give me a hug and provided wonderful, positive, and uplifting advice to me.  She knew I had been having a bad few months in my personal life and her coming up to me was so sweet.  I adore her!

One thing though, I could smell her cigarettes and after having the one, all I wanted was another.  I asked if she would mind if I bummed one of her smokes and she happily complied.  I thought I could perhaps sneak out without being noticed, but it didn't exactly work out like that.  People were starting to wonder where I went and someone snitched.  Of course when I came back to the suite EVERYONE was teasing me asking, “WHAT’S THAT SMELL!?!?”  I know my face was bright red.  That was the pressure I needed earlier and hope I get when I try my next spanking party weekend without smokes.

As the night wore on, cute little Prux had something that she tricked convinced me into helping out with.  At the FMS party that I was unable to attend, ReeBee and Prux asked what would be a funny thing to do for their scene with OS.  I had let them know the absolute worst thing they could do would be to make fun of his sport teams.  I even TOLD them that it would be the worst thing to do and that his hairbrush would be instantly added to this scene.  The two girls decided to do it anyway.  I still personally think that my being yelled at and spanked for their actions was ridiculous.  These were grown ladies and they chose their actions.  If I had the power to control people into being my minions, I would be ruler of the world (/endrant/). 

So Prux, in hoping to make up the error of her duck panties, asked me to help create a book to why the “Ducks” were bad, but actual ducks were cute and adorable and stuff.  So, being the helpful person that I am, I created a list of bad awesome duck jokes and sent it to her to help add to her book.  Sunday night was the big reveal and apparently OS was not too happy with his gift.   Prux was bent over a chair first, so I took the opportunity to move to behind the couch.  Pubsie pointed to me and said, “QUIT HIDING BEHIND THE COUCH!”  I responded with, “ummmm… you can SEE me.  That means I am not hiding.”  I was pleased my remark resulted in many snickers from those sitting on the couch.

Eventually OS was finished with Prux and looked to me.  I took the opportunity to be a ham and ducked behind the couch (get it???  DUCKED!!!).  RainySpanker leaned over and said, “we can do this the easy way, or the HARD way.”  I personally enjoy being a little manhandled, so I gleefully looked up at him and said, “drag me out!!  No really!  It will be FUN!”  He grabbed my arms and pulled me out from behind the couch.

I normally feel very uncomfortable when guys pick me up, drag me, or ask me to sit on their laps.  Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE IT.  I’m just a large girl and I’m afraid that I am going to hurt the guy and then that will spread to everyone else and no one would want to touch me.  The fact that I have actually SAID this to RainySpanker and he still does it, makes me happy.  He makes me feel small and helpless.  Oddly, a huge trigger for my headspace.

Anyway, I gave OS a hug and whispered that I really hadn't played that much this weekend and to keep that in mind.  He nodded that he understood, but then my smart mouth got the better of me.  Let me put the statement here saying that OS is a play partner that I trust completely!  We have a play relationship where I trust what he does and my banter is basically me asking for it.  Official statement out of the way, my smart mouth got me in trouble.  In fact, at one point OS leaned over and told me that he was planning to be nice and go lightly, but I just can’t seem to help myself. 

Bent over the chair playing with leather and (gasp!) a wood paddle (Normal people get a NO on wood paddles, brushes, or ANYTHING and playing publicly with wood always makes me nervous because I worry other people will think it is okay to use wood on me too).  I do enjoy playing in front of an audience, and my highlight came when OS pulled my pj pants down to reveal my cute foxy panties that were made by the lovely Miss Beth.  Check out her adorable panties HERE!

I could hear Beth shriek, “THOSE ARE MY PANTIES!”   I smiled because they fit nicely and were very cute.  She should be proud of what she makes and everyone kept talking about them.  OS even stopped and bent over to tell me that everyone was talking about how cute my butt looked with Beth’s foxy panties on.  It made me happy that I could provide free advertisement without everyone running out of the room for seeing them on MY butt. 

Our double play scene with the book ended with Prux being made to provide a speech about some duck thing to everyone in the room.  Perhaps little Prux needs to rethink her outcomes!  ;)

Shadowlane Part IX: Punished and Dealing with Party Life as a Crazy Person.

Catch up on my other party posts:

         Part I  Part II  Part III  Part IV Part V Part VI Part VII Part VIII

After a nice drive back to the hotel with Dirk and Pubsie, I headed upstairs with a brief stop into the other suite before heading to ours.  While walking down the hallway, I realized that I didn’t have my phone on me.  I assumed that I left the phone in the car, so I asked Pubsie if he could run down and try to catch Dirk before the valet parked his car.

While freshening up, it occurred to me that maybe I had left my phone in the other suite and so I headed back down to 1016.  After knocking Stacy held up my phone and said, “here it is!  Pubsie called and I answered it… he said to tell you that you are in BIG trouble.”

I closed my eyes for a second and said thank you for finding my phone and letting them know it was up here.  OS was laughing because he thought that it was awesome that Pubsie announced that I was in trouble.  We do not have a DD dynamic in our relationship, so Pubsie actually announcing that meant he was REALLY annoyed with me.

After that comment there was no way I was going back to my suite.

 

Rather quickly Dirk and Pubsie arrived at the suite and my one idea was to hide.  Pretty much a classic cousin panicked based plan, I ran into Heather's, Somaholiday's, and OS’s bedroom and darted to the closet.  Why was this a classic cousin plan?  I was trapped without a real plan of action, but at the time I thought it was a great idea!  Since jules was unable to make this party, I apparently began to channel her spirit.  ;)

It worked for a second because Pubsie thought I hid in the bathroom.  However, Dirk checked the closet and pulled me out.  I was feeling horrible when both gentlemen started to scold me.  I did have to yell back, because both men thought it would be funny to make it out much worse than it was and I was already at the point of tears.  They did end up ripping out the back seat of Dirk’s rental car, but luckily no permanent car damage was done.

Pubsie bent me over the bed and took off his belt and began to strap me for the hassle.  OS decided it would be extra helpful to put his ridiculous ginormous hairbrush on the bed.  I glared at him and told him to mind his own business, and luckily both Dirk and Pubsie were too…“distracted” to notice the hairbrush.  When Pubsie was done he offered his belt to Dirk since I inconvenienced him as well.  Dirk was all too happy to comply.

I could tell that Pubsie was still a little annoyed, but Dirk was very forgiving.  He told me that it was worth it since he got to belt me.  I’m glad that Dirk is so easily appeased. 

I’ve mentioned before how I am a little “bat-shit-crazy” and with the emotions that run high throughout a whole weekend, there tends to be a moment where I finally break.

My anxiety embarrasses me.  I hate for people to see me cry.  I hate thinking that people are judging me because of my anxiety.  I am afraid that people are thinking that I am just looking for attention, and I am afraid that people think they have to walk on eggshells around me because of it.

One of the reasons why I am willing to talk about it is because for years I thought I was the only person who dealt with anxiety.  Growing up it was hard to keep friends because of it.  Who wants to be friends with a crybaby?  So I learned to hide it as best as I could.  If I feel a panic attack coming on, I try to sneak away until I can get a control of my emotions.  Without being on anxiety drugs, it is harder to calm down.  I want others who may also deal with anxiety to understand that they are not alone and to never be afraid to talk to others about it if help is needed.

What the trigger was is not important, but while I was in the suite with everyone I felt my panic rise and I started having difficulty breathing.  Trying to remain calm, I smiled and laughed with everyone as I slowly got up and moved to the door in hopes of being able to sneak out unnoticed.  I headed down to our suite and moved into our bedroom.  Still feeling that I was too exposed, I locked myself into our bathroom and sat in our tub as I cried and tried to gain control of myself.  I’m not sure how long I was in the bathroom, but I eventually managed to calm myself down enough to get out and move towards getting a bottle of water.

Apparently I did not escape completely unnoticed.  When I opened the bathroom door I noticed that Kor-E was in the room waiting for me to come out.  When I saw him I instantly teared up again embarrassed to have been caught.  He and I had a long talk and even played a bit.  I was feeling better after our talk, but the well had been tapped and I knew that I would need some more time before I would be ready to face everybody.

Pubsie came down and gave me a big hug, and I asked him to leave me alone for a bit.  Until I was able to pass the eye makeup test (not crying with eye makeup on!), I didn't want to go downstairs and I didn't want him to think he had to stay and babysit me while a party was going on.  I was afraid of people noticing that something was wrong.

I was hiding in the room when my beautiful wifey came in.  She hadn't realized that I had been hiding and she was quick to provide a big hug.  We were able to talk and I was finally starting to feel normal again.  With Pubsie texting me to come down to the suite parties, and Aurora’s ‘lovin’, I finally felt like I could come back to joining everyone.

For those of you who know me, you know I smoke.  I have manage to stop smoking but have a few triggers that I have not yet gotten past.  One hurdle was not smoking at a spanking party.  I was doing so well that I actually felt like I could brag about it.  I figured if I told people I wasn't smoking I would make sure that I wasn't smoking.  After this anxiety attack I only had one thing on my brain.  Get a cigarette and REALLY relax.

Of course the first cigarette I was able to bum, out came YS, Beth, and Ellee.  That was the end of my bragging.  I do wish I could have gone a whole spanking weekend without smoking, but considering I normally go through a pack and half a party weekend, the two cigarettes (the second smoke is for a later story) that I had were a strong start and hopefully the next party I can make it the whole weekend. 

Finally feeling up to seeing people, I took a deep breath and headed down to join the Sunday night suite party in 460.

Shadowlane Part V: The Special Headmaster's Session

If you missed the other posts:

Part I  Part II  Part III  Part IV

After another late night I woke up early again.  I went out into the living room to wake up with crappy coffee and enjoyed a nice quiet moment playing on my phone.  Kor-E and Maria were already awake and they were getting ready to head out and pick up some good coffee.  Since Kor-E offered to pick me up a coffee, I decided to test his coffee knowledge by ordering a Double, non-fat, extra froth, caramel latte.  He made fun of me, but promised to pick one up!   The rest of us in our suite were moving slowly, but Aurora and I would eventually need to get ready to head to our special detention session.  Poor Aurora had been healing from a broken ankle and her foot had been very swollen.  Following doctor’s orders she choose not to wear shoes.  I felt bad because I hadn't realized how much she had been hurting. 

Kor-E showed up with the latte while I was showering and asked Aurora to pass it on to me with a clause stating that by accepting this latte, I would agree to forgive him for abandoning me and not bring him up on court charges.  I took the latte and marched over to their room, but Kor-E had already left.  Maria promised to inform Kor-E that I rejected his offer and would leave the latte for the maid to drink.

Aurora and I finished getting ready and I peeked out into the hallway hoping not to see the mean lady from the night before.   With the coast clear, we headed down to Stephen Lewis’s room and knocked on his door.   He invited us in and thanked us for coming back.  After asking us both to sit down, he asked if we understood why we were there.  Aurora once again gave a sincere answer that sounded smart assy, and I gave a smart assy answer but accompanied it with my charming smile.  After smirking at both of us, Mr. Lewis pointed at first Aurora, then at me and said, “If that tone is sincere, and that LOOK is supposed to be sincere, you are both doomed!”  Both of Aurora and I started cracking up and I was asked to stand and go over his lap.

Mr. Lewis started with an over the lap spanking and yummy scolding of my improper detention behavior.  As he stood me up he pointed out that since this was a special headmaster session as opposed to a formal detention, there would be no counting.  Aurora however,  piped up that SHE had been counting and that he was at 95 swats.  Since we were that close to 100 he pulled me back over his lap for five more swats!  Aurora… always so helpful.

Next was Aurora’s turn.  The poor girl went over Stephen’s lap, but unfortunately the pain in her ankle was hurting really bad and it was too much for her.  Aurora is a great wifey because she understands my anxiety and how I get with people I am just getting to know. Even though she wasn't up for playing, she came anyway to support me.   Her kindness (even though she is going to prove what a brat she is) is why I love this girl!

Stephen sat her up and we talked for a few minutes as Aurora apologized for not being up for playing.  He gave her a big hug and asked her if she wanted to stay and watch ME get punished.  I don’t think I have ever seen that big of a grin on Aurora’s face as she excitedly said, “YES, SIR!”  Back over his knee I went and when I was told to stand back up, Aurora shared that it was only 49 swats.  Of course I had to go back over for one more spank.

Mr. Lewis stood up and told Aurora that she can decide if she felt that I was punished enough.  The little minx looked like the Cheshire Cat as she nodded enthusiastically.  Mr. Lewis then said one of my favorite lines of the whole scene, “Since this is a special headmaster’s session, I get to make this shit up as we go along!”

I had never played with Stephen Lewis outside of their formal detention sessions, and I wasn't aware how much research he puts into his scenes.   I have several triggers in a scene that can not only get into my head space, but make me weak in the knees as well.   He pulled my ponytail and made me look up at him, and he scolded me using my “full name” saying that by the end of this session, I would be one sorry, well behaved young lady.  I melted.  It was such a yummy moment that I almost forgot to breath for a moment.

I was told to bend over the table and received cane strokes and swats with leather as Aurora announced whether or not she felt I had learned my lesson (she didn't).   Aurora was then told to sit across from me and hold my hands as I received my final strokes. Another tug at the pony tail and I was standing back up with my final scolding.

Aurora was feeling up for trying a few strokes with the cane, and over the table she went with me being told to hold her hands.  I love watching the faces of girls being spanked, and the noises they make.  Stephen told us that we both make the most adorable noises, and Aurora had to prove it by making the squeak toy noises she makes when being caned.  

I wish I could better describe this entire scene to fully show my emotions, adrenaline, and the fact that sometimes I just can’t control my mouth.  I was sinking into subspace and my brain turned to a fuzzy mush.  When I think back all I can remember is how happy I was and how amazing it had been.  If I could describe this scene in one word?  HOT!   The chemistry felt right, the banter was awesome, and the scene itself was perfect.

Now that I know what a special Headmaster session entails, I may never behave during normal detention again.  ;)

Thank you to Stephen Lewis for an awesome play session!  I cannot wait for the next party and being able to play again.  :)

BBW Post XI: Sunday Night Suite Parties and One of my Best Scenes Ever

If you missed any, start here:

Part I

As detention ended, the girls heading on down to join the many people already filling up the suites.  Even though the official party was over, so many people were staying Sunday night.  The atmosphere seems much more relaxed as friends chat and play some last minute scenes.  It is always fun to see the different type of relationships that form and/or strengthen throughout the weekend.  

I watched as certain scenes were set up and smiled as I watched a nervous Heather still in her school girl outfit waiting to get her detention slipped signed.  I threw Aurora under the bus since Publikk hadn't spanked all 3/3s of the power.  I watched hugs being given, drinks being poured, and a wave of happy content outpouring from each of the individual faces of all the party attendees.  

Topjosh and I had swore that we would get a scene in at some point this weekend.  Since it was already Sunday night and we still had not played, he pulled me aside and tried to find some place to play.  All the rooms in the suites were hopping so I suggested that we go down to our room.  Apparently Publikk and Sarah_Rocks had the same idea, so I asked Topjosh if he was okay if they came down to the room as well.

Poor Topjosh!  I don't think he realized what he was signing up for when both Sarah and I are together in a room.  The two of us feed off of each other and Sarah's banter is hilarious.  Josh was cracking up for our entire scene and it was one of the most fun and light-hearted moments of the party!  I was so glad we were able to finally connect and play more than just a few smacks at the end of a party!

As the night went on, I was really hoping that Uncle OS and I would get the chance to reconnect after our earlier scene didn't happen.  Unfortunately for me, I was having a few of my nagging thoughts picking away at my happy thoughts and I was feeling very insecure.  The wave of emotion one goes through at a party is hard on the normal person.  I'm not a normal person, lol.  When emotions, and adrenaline, and hormones build up, I start to become shaky and lose any confidence that I may have.  As much as I wanted this scene, there was no way I was going to ask for it. Being told "no" twice in one party especially by someone I care about may have resulted in my quitting of the scene and turning vanilla forever more!  I also didn't want him to feel like we had to play in some pity play type of way.  So although I had bratted and teased, I wanted him to be sure he knew that he didn't have to play with me.  

Luckily he told me that he still needed to "deal" with me, but he needed to take care of something first. I hung out waiting with butterflies building in my tummy.  I was really worried that I was coming off as way too needy and I paced a little in the hallway in an attempt to calm myself down.   It was nice that while I was waiting a few people asked if I was interested in playing.  I declined stating that I was waiting for a scene and because at that point in the weekend I was starting to wonder what my tolerance was.  When would it be the "last spank" that I could handle?   Unfortunately, Kor-E was one of the people I had to say no and wait until later, but I knew that he knew I was waiting and that there was no way we would go a party without him getting his hands on me!

My nerves had built up and I started pacing again as I waited.  In my head I felt that it was very important for me to mention that I was okay with him not wanting to play and provide him with an out.  When I saw him and his lovely little girl Stacy walking up the hallway, I wanted to mention it to him.  I quietly whispered that I was okay if he didn't want to play and that he really didn't have to.   I was responded with a "No, young lady!  You are not getting out of this."  The he turned and pointed to a corner in the hallway and said, "In fact... go stand in that corner and wait!"  My good friend Stacy came to my rescue and told her Daddy that I do not do corners and that he should read my fetish list!  Thank you Stacy for reading my fetish report! (If you are curious what she was talking about, click here!)  We walked down to my room and he asked when corners became a "red" for me, and I had to explain how it wasn't a hard limit for me, it's just that corner time just doesn't do it for me (especially after staring at the wall during the British Detention all night!).  I have way too much A.D.D. to focus and stand still for too long!!

Cornertime for me involves way too much fidgeting and tugging at my hair!

I don't think I fully realized how much I was craving the type of scene we were about to have.  I knew that I wanted to play, I just didn't think that he would be able to get into my mind and head space the way that he would.  He put me over his knee and began to spank me while talking about my obnoxious feelings.  I didn't want to talk about being rejected, but he dragged it out of me.  When I started crying over it like a pathetic loser, he pulled me in for a hug and held me until I stopped.

When I get nagging thoughts in my head, I do turn a bit stubborn.  I can't remember exactly why, but at some point I refused to comply with what he was saying.  He threatened to get his hairbrush and I made the mistake of rolling my eyes.  That sealed my fate and was told, "I don't care if standing in the corner does nothing for you, you are going to stand there anyway!  Get in a corner!"  When my mouth spoke before my brain and said, "all the corners have stuff in them" I was given one of the sternest looks I have ever received!  I think it may have been a personal record on how fast I turned around and found a corner to stick my nose into!  

I was left to stand in the corner for a short amount of time as he ran and fetched his hairbrush before being put back over his knee.  After being scolded for pulling my panties back up without permission, the swat with the hairbrush came raining down. Uncle OS's hairbrush is one of the meanest hairbrushes around and he has a very unhealthy obsession with it.  Oddly enough though, as much as I hate wood... he has such a great technique with it that it is not the horrible torture that wood usually is on me.  

Between the hairbrushing, and combination of soothing yet stern words, I was starting to let go and allowing myself to submit to the pain and take it in.  It is a very freeing feeling to be able to put my guard down.  I trusted him.  I trusted him to see me at my most vulnerable and I loved it.  He bent me back over the bed and took his belt off and began to strap me.  All I had to say was that I promised to be his good little niece and it would have stopped.  I couldn't bring myself to say it.  I wanted the scene to keep going and I was too stubborn to admit anything! After five minutes he stopped and asked me if I was ready to say it.  I just looked up at him and remained silent.  He said, "Fine.  I can do this all night."  I still wasn't ready to cave after another five minutes.  Even when he started strapping my thighs I stayed silent.  When he said that I wouldn't being wearing any short skirts any time soon...  I stayed silent.  I think it was after 13 straight minutes that I finally said that I was willing to be his good little niece!!!

Apparently I shouldn't wear shorts either... 

Afterwards he pulled me in and held me and talked such sweet words that I tried so hard to let myself believe.  This was one of the best scenes I had ever had and I am so grateful that he is nice enough to want to play with me.  I'm not sure if he knew what a mess I was prior to playing, but that one scene made my whole weekend and it was worth waiting until Sunday night to have it.   It is so rare for someone to be able to tap into my headspace, and it means the world to mean that he did.

Poor Stacy and Heather were waiting for us concerned after he ran out of the room and got his hairbrush!  I was so happy for them to come in and give hugs as I sat in my spacey, after a perfect scene giddiness.  I also loved that they ratted each other out for their school misbehavings and both ended up being bent over the bed for licks of their own.  I sat on the bed and watched like the little perv I am and then I took the opportunity to sneak my own school detention slip into the mix so it would be signed without consequence!  ;)

 Sunday night was such a wonderful night for me.

BBW Post X: British Discipline Group and Detention With the Cousins

If you missed any, start here:

Part I

Stephen Lewis, Mrs. Darling, Mr. Allen, and the head girls Catherine, and Zoe were nice enough to donate their time by creating a British Discipline group that allowed for girls to take part of a role play as if they were being sent to the Headmasters office for correctional needs.  It is an awesome concept that I was too chicken to sign up for at Shadowlane, but the lovely Maria decided to coral and organize a cousin detention time for all of us to participate in.   Since there were so many of us and we were all involved with different aspects of BBW, the only time we could all get together would be Sunday night after the cruise.

We were all directed to be prepared for our detention at 9pm sharp.  Since Heather's and my room was connected to the British Discipline room, we had all the girls meet at our room at 8:30 so we wouldn't be late.  We were super giggly as everyone started to show up.  Heather, Maria, Stacy, Sarah, Aurora, Ellee and I were bouncing around the room as we waited for 9pm to arrive.  Unfortunately Beth was unable to make it and we thought jules wouldn't be able to either, but at the last second jules arrived to join in the chaos!  

At about two minutes to nine, Mrs. Darling burst through our connecting door and warned us that we had two minutes to be ready.  Assuming we would be using the connecting door, we hung around giggling for longer than two minutes.  It was then that we were informed that we should be waiting by the outside door and that we were now all late.  As everyone rushed out of our room to line up outside, my nervous energy burst and I thought that it might be a good idea to knock crazy on the door and then quickly run away to the end of the line.  The door soon burst open and Maria and Heather were whisked away while the rest of us were required to wait outside.  The rest of us stood around giggling until we were threatened to be quiet.  We starting talking and giggling again until we were threatened with all of us being caned on the front of our thighs.  That line managed to echo down the hallway and draw some curious looks our way from the other party goers.  The majority of us stood back in line quietly, but Ellee soon stepped back out and quietly continued her conversation with us.

We could hear smacking noises coming through the door as Heather and Maria were being attended to.  Soon the door flew open and the rest of us were to file inside.  Poor Heather and Maria were standing with their noses against the wall as we lined up to face the discipline panel.  Headmaster Lewis, School Secretary Mrs. Darling, and Head Girl Zoe were awaiting us.  

The three Brits did an amazing job staring us down.  I had goosebumps as they began to lecture us.  Of course the first thing they asked was, "Which one of you knocked on the door and ran away!?"  For a split second I hesitated wondering if I should admit that it was me, but at that point I had no idea why Heather and Maria were called into the room before the rest of us.   I was worried one of them may have cracked (Heather!) or I was worried that I brought super doom down on all of us.  So as they waited glaring at us, I slowly raised my hand admitting that it had been me who knocked and ran.  At least they appreciated that I had been honest, but it didn't stop me from having to go first when it came to turning our detention slips over.  

What is driving me crazy is I know I saved the slip and I cannot find it!  I can't remember exactly what it said, but I was in trouble for two reasons.  1.) It is only okay to answer a question without being a smart alec and 2.)  Wiggling and giggling during my bad girl corner spanking.  Once again I found myself over headmaster Lewis's knee (*swoon*) being hand spanked for my transgressions, and then given ten more for my knock and dash.  It is hard for me to keep my feet on the ground while I am being spanked OTK, and at one point I actually LOST my shoes.  I was wearing my adorable purple kitty cat shoes that I love so much, but Mrs. Darling did not seem to approve of them.  In fact, I was told that she did not approve of my rodent shoes!  Unable to help myself, I had to explain that the shoes were in fact CATS with pointy ears and whiskers.  Not listening to reasoning, she told me they looked like RATS!  :-(

I found it!!  

After that exchange I found myself up with my nose against the wall as the other girls were brought forward on their own charges.  Standing with my noise against the wall was very hard for me because I really wanted to turn around and watch the ongoings!  I could not help but giggle and it is really hard for me to stay focused in the corner anyway.  This was really cool though, because by the time all the girls were punished, every single one of us had our skirts up and nose in the corner.  As the last girl was punished for our transgressions, we were called forward again for round two!  Apparently Mrs. Darling assumed I was trying to whisper to Maria.  I wasn't.  Maria was being to good of a girl and refused to catch my eye!  ;)  So it was back over the chair for a strapping.  With Maria on the other side!  It would be my turn, then Maria's turn and we were suppose to count and thank the headmaster for our punishment.  I just happen to be very bad at following directions.  I counted... but I forgot to thank him for my punishment.  So we had to do it again.  Then my nerves got to me and I stuttered over counting!  That was an extra swat as well.  When Maria and I were finished, we were both back with our noses against the wall.  Aurora and Sarah were punished for their inappropriate girl on girl action, and their double caning was amazing!  It was becoming even more difficult for me to stay with my noise against the wall.  The sweet and innocent Stacy whose original charge was to show the rest of us the proper way to take a spanking was spanked because of these inappropriate shoes that jules got her.  Jules was spanked again for "snotting" on the wall.  Ellee was spanked for her fox shoes, purse, and panties, and then Heather... sweet cousin Heather... my Boardwalk Academy Roommate, sold all the cousins out the night before!!!!!!!!!  After snitching to the headmaster and secretary that the best way to break us would be to "divide and conquer" and to "take out jules and the rest will follow", we were allowed to turn and watch her comeuppance!!

The detention was so much fun and the quick witted response from the team was amazing.  A few of the comments that had us all cracking up was when Mrs. Darling asked, "What does a fox say, Headmaster?" After Ellee was turned over and with Heather standing against the wall being her naughty self, Mrs. Darling said: "Heather!!!!  Your gaping hole is getting wider!"  After we all started snickering, Mrs. Darling asked, "HEADMASTER!  What am I supposed to do with a room full of crude American girls!"  

After watching Heather get what she deserved, :)  we all had to sign the discipline book, thank the group for punishing us, and we headed back to our room.  Our half hour detention turned out to be closer to two hours when all was said and done!  With all the girls being occupied, the guys down the hall discussed barging down to save themselves from the sausage fest.

The Punishment Book

Thanks so much to Maria for organizing this for all of us and the wonderful Brits for being such good sports and playing along.  I really hope that we can all do this again at the next party! 

BBW Part VIII: Court, Lunch, and Sassing Uncle OS

If you missed the other parts, start here:

BBW Part I

Sleep is something that you do not get at these events.  After going to bed at around 6 AM, I needed to wake up a few hours later for Spanking Court.  Thankfully Spanking Court was pushed to noon this year and that extra hour did make a difference.  I knew that I was involved in at least two court cases so I needed to make sure I was there on time!

The first case that I was called on involved my scene with hornybastard and being tossed to the ground!  This was HB's first party so I wasn't sure if he would be okay with me calling him up on charges. Luckily he is a good sport, and he somehow managed to win!  I love doing these court cases where people crack up and chuckle as you're explaining what is going on.  I still can't believe I lost, and sure enough I was bent over a chair for four swats from Judge Dave.

The second case I was involved in was Sarah_Rocks and I versus Mike Tanner and Jules. The charge? Attempting to get into lunch without having their name badge!  Jules managed to build a wonderful case and Sarah and I were convinced we were going to lose.  However, Mike Tanner leans over and whispers to Jules, "tell them where guilty!"  I nearly fell over laughing!  With that comment Sarah_Rocks and I won our case!

After court, a bunch of us ran around to help tear down the ballroom and packed up the curtains and banners that were hanging around the room.  As what has become a lovely tradition on Sunday after court, a large group of us went for family-style Italian food!  Publikk and I climbed into our roomy rented minivan, and headed over to join the group.

Lunch on Sunday is always so relaxing. We get to hang out, talk, and enjoy each others company.  We also get to leave the hotel!!  I was still feeling a little insecure, but I was also feeling very sassy.  It turns out to not be a good combination.  OlympiaSpanker was sitting not too far from me.  All weekend he was being very mean to me. :(  Not in the fun spanking way, but in the "let me make fun of your sports teams and other things that you like" type of way.  The tired brat in me was making comment after comment until he threatened to take the keys to the van and march me off to the parking garage for misbehaving.  Apparently that threat wasn't good enough, because the next threat was to march me over to the public bathroom, with a promise that he was not kidding. That was when I decided that I must have stepped over the line and should probably quiet down.  Not without a stubborn pout directed his way!   Poor Prux and Reina who were sitting across from me became silent after that exchange of words.  My knees were shaking as well, especially after I was told I did indeed step over that line and that it would be dealt with shortly.

This type of scene set up is very rare for me.  I was in the perfect headspace to be spanked in the van in the parking garage for misbehaving in the restaurant.  I was sorry for pushing and embarrassed that a public spanking was inevitable.  It was not planned, it just happened.  A real spanking for real misbehavior.  It doesn't get any better than that!

Unfortunately, due to unforeseen circumstances, the scene was unable to take place because Uncle OS and Stacy had to ride back to the hotel with another person. It felt like someone dumped a bucket of ice water over my head and I was so disappointed.  I didn't know when or if we would ever get another chance like that. I didn't even know if we would have the head space set up to address the restaurant behavior later.  Public threats with semi public spankings is apparently a huge spanko turn on for me!  Having it be for something real was the sprinkle and cherries on top.  I hope to somehow get that chance again someday!

Publikk and I headed to the parking garage by ourselves, and our poor rental van would remain spank free.  At least we had the Adult Speaking Cruise to look forward to!

BBW Part VI: Saturday Night Suite Parties and THE POWER!

Just in case you missed them:

Part I

Part II

Part III

Part IV

Part V

The Saturday night suites were hopping as people began to assemble on the suite floor.  The sound of smacks echoing throughout the hallway is always an amazing sound to hear.  

Boardwalk Badness Weekend always attracts a large number of British Spankos and I can't help myself when it comes down to their accents.  I'm not sure if it is just an American thing, but listening to certain accents just make me happy, and British accents are definitely a favorite of mine! 

I have known jcspanks for several parties now, but have never managed to play with him.  Mostly it is because I am terrified to ask people to play and never want to bother people and a bunch of other crazy neurotic reasons that make absolutely no logical sense to anyone other than me!  Lucky for me, Mr. Jcspanks came up and told me that we weren't going to miss each other at this party! I walked into Dirk's suite and the two of us went into the bedroom and enjoyed a wonderful scene with hand spanks, straps, and my favorite, the cane.  Once Jcspanks discovered that I love being caned, he provided plenty of stripes and even called over the lovely ouchkiss to share her expertise!  Jcspanks was so great that he even tried to help set up a caning scene between Mr. Allen and myself!  Unfortunately, with everything going on we were unable to connect, but it is on my must do list for the next party!

A British Invasion would not be complete without the chance to play with my favorite ex-Brit Rich!  Friday night we attempted to set up a "power hour" with Rich, but unfortunately he was too tired to even try to handle the awesomeness that is us, and he went to bed early to prepare for his class at the boardwalk academy.  We were NOT going to miss this chance on Saturday.  

I managed to get Aurora, Sarah_Rocks, and I together and texted Rich to meet us and take advantage of my suite floor room!  All weekend I would hear Heather and Publikk occupying the room and decided to grab my chance and be one of the cool suite floor kids.  Publikk was in one of the suites and Heather was in the hallway, so you can imagine my surprise when I walked in our room and a scene was going on!  At first I was just embarrassed for interrupting, however, then I was confused.  I mean, if Publikk was down there and we were right here, who was in the room?

Luckily Heather first realized that it was the lovely Stepfordwife who came through the secret door that connected our rooms.  We all giggled and Heather was whisked into the room!  

A quick change of location decision put us in Rich and Missy's room and Rich found himself with The POWER and Pulls_Panties_Down.  I think it is safe to say that PPD still suffers from Post Traumatic Power Disorder and is a bit grouchy when it comes to the power!

Rich knowing our love of canes compared the three of us to Goldielocks!  Sarah_Rocks the girl he has never caned.  Aurora, the girl he canes occasionally, and me!  The girl he canes all the time!!

I bent over the bed as Rich proceeded to give me a nice long caning session.  Missy came back into the room at some point and starting playing with my hair while I was being caned.  I was in heaven!  I almost fell asleep, but then Missy mentioned (as part of a conversation) that she was curious about someone being caned to the point of bleeding.  I lifted my head at that point and she reassured me that this was not the make a wish foundation and she wasn't asking ME to be sliced.  ;)

It was such a wonderful scene.  My bestie wives, the adorable Missy, and my favorite egotist!  I was extremely giddy and loopy afterwards which I think ended up contributing to my feeling brave and actually for the very first time in six years of party adventures, asking a top to play with me.  

BBW Part IV: Boardwalk Academy

If you missed them:

Part I

Part II

Part III

Saturday morning started early with Heather up and ready at what felt way too early!! ;)  Heather was the good school girl and didn't want to be late for the Boardwalk Academy.  Since it doesn't take long for me to get ready (I seem to miss that girly gene), I lay in bed much longer and waited for Publikk to get ready for his role as hall monitor since he had to be there a half hour before the girls were due to show up.  Poor Heather!  She ran between our room and Stacy's room to make sure we were ready, threatening to leave us behind!  Luckily all three of us were able to leave together as we were scolded and chased out towards the elevators.  With our husbands, daddies, uncles, and friends ALL involved with the event, it would not have been wise for us to be late.  

The number of girls by the elevators was claustrophobic and I felt my anxiety rise by the squished feeling of being trapped between the girls and the door.  Luckily, before I started to claw at the door, Jules started to ring the bell to let us in.  The sight of the strict and deadpan faces of the entire boardwalk academy staff was a sight to behold.  I had to turn my head when I saw Monseigneur Dirk in an attempt to control my laughter.  It was such an amazing group.  All the school girls were given class schedules and told to line up against the hall wall.  

Principal Tanner addressed the girls and when he walked by, one of the naughty girls whistled.  Of course it was Sarah_Rocks and she was told to kneel in the middle of the hallway until after our prayer and the pledge of allegiance.  The prayer was hilarious and very appropriate for the group, and YoggSothoth looked so proud to be the flag holder for the pledge!  Everyone did such an amazing job setting up the headspace for this event.  

There were four classes offered and everyone was signed up to take three.  My classes began with Etiquette (taught by the Brits), followed by Human Sexuality (taught by Sister Miranda), and ending with Geography (taught by Richard Windsor and Mr K.). Gym was the class I missed out on, but it was taught by Ms Dana Specht.  

Due to my location, I was the last person to walk into the Etiquette class leaving one lone chair by itself in the front of the room.  I cringed and sat down in it.  Luckily Sarah_Rocks was in the class and she quickly became her naughty self and was told to switch places with me.  I assumed that I was safe in the back row, however, I was now sitting next to the hilariously entertaining Korey and her "if they were any more British they would be crumpets" comment caused me to start giggling.  Mr. Lewis quickly pulled me aside to scold and warn me that if I misbehaved again I would be going over his knee.  The strict look, stern voice, and sexy English accent caused my knees to shake, and red faced I returned to me seat.  Before any other action could take place, Korey was taken aside and "attended" to.  As I listened (slightly jealous of Korey), there was a knock at the door and hall monitor TopJosh appeared with a summons for me.  Slightly puzzled, I left class trying to figure out why sweet little me would be escorted to Dean StrictDave's office. 

Apparently I forgot that I may have been a little smart ass-y on my application to the Boardwalk Academy.  Dean Dave was nice enough to remind me about what I apparently forgot about putting on my application. Apparently I was also in trouble for general disobedience. After being scolded, it was over Dean Dave's knee for a good sound spanking.  I thought I was getting off easy until I was bent over the Dean's desk for a good taste of his mean old strap. 

If you have ever played with StrictDave or have seen strict Dave do a scene, you know what an amazing top he is. Getting to do a role-play scene for a real infraction by a dean who did not once break character was one of the best things about the boardwalk Academy.  It was these little moments and attention to detail, that really made the Academy so much fun!

After my trip to the Dean's office, I went back to etiquette class which unfortunately was almost over.  The bell rang and it was time to move to human sexuality class with sister Miranda!

Sister Miranda was the funniest teacher!As strict as she is, the jokes and the laughter kept coming. My memories are becoming fuzzy and I am not sure how this happened, but at one point Aurora mentioned how she has occasionally faked an orgasm. That resulted in Aurora going to the front of the class and showing us all how to fake an orgasm. It was amazing! In fact, I kind of wanted a cigarette after listening to it! I'm also not sure how things happened, but at some point it was decided that I was driving the bus to hell.  I also somehow ended up in the naughty chair, but was allowed to flip off another student without getting in trouble. I told sister Miranda that I was just going to give her a "thumbs" up.

The last class of the day was geography with Richard Windsor and Mr. K. Each teacher had their own teaching style and their own class was run a certain way.  Rich and Mr. K co-taught wonderfully.  We were quizzed on questions such as what is the state bird of Oklahoma, to capitals of European countries, and a few trick questions thrown in to throw us off our game.  When it comes to trivia like questions, sometimes I cannot help myself.  Even though I was warned if I spoke out another answer I would be in the corner, I could not help but blurt out VIENNA when Maria was asked what the capital of Austria was.  Unfortunately, my answer was heard and I was told to put my nose against the wall and wait for the round to be finished.  Mr. Windsor and Mr. K made sure to spank any girl who did not know the correct answer.  This allowed for each girl to get a little bit of individual attention and both Mr. Windsor and Mr. K took turns switching up the girls.  Both men ran this class beautifully

After the last class we were told to line up in the hallway again.  It was at this time that principal Tanner asked how many girls were removed from class to go to a discipline office. Every single girl raised her hand.  Jules made sure to find a infraction so every girl could have a personal discipline scene.  The hard work that was put into this event was shown and it was amazing.  Everyone had a great time, from schoolgirl to hall monitor, from teacher to disciplinarian.  The individual attention made the event special for everyone!

Unfortunately for me, I seemed to have thought that I had brought my key with me. Publikk actually had it, but it did cause me to go back and see if I could find it.  Of course, when it involves going back to the Dean to search for a lost key, guess who was bent backed over the desk and strapped again!!  :-D